vivid memories(:

happiness...

2009-10-18T01:06:00.002+07:00

this few days u make me feel as though i am crap..
but today i feel that somehow everything has come to a happiness...
=D
feel very happy ..
but my heart still have you and i cant treat u not more than a friend...
what should i do?
gosh.. cant decide n cant let go any of this..
hopefully u feel the same for me... haix..

is dis happiness?

2009-04-07T00:22:00.002+07:00

weeks past by....
you make me smile everyday.. thank you so much.. =)
hope the both of us can be friend forever.. hahaa.. =p

dengarkan curhatku

2009-04-03T18:07:00.000+07:00

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unspeakable..

2009-03-21T14:41:00.002+07:00

lols.. browse through my past enteries.. and i just found out that it is all about him! holy crap.. was i so deeply in love with him.. lols. i guess i dun now.. coz i noe we are gonna be a good friend.. so far whenever i wan to share my problem with him he will be there...
so arent he a good friend? hahaha...
=)
just wanna say thankuew so much for treating me as you gud friend.. =D

i love this song..

2009-03-14T00:36:00.002+07:00

Intro Translation:Hello all, this is Wang Lee Hom. This is my first song called Heartbeat from my new album. A person's heart is a very mysterious thing; it can bring bountiful joy and also pain without limitations...
Heartbeat 心跳 Lyrics/Composition: Wang Lee Hom (王力宏)

想跟我吵架我没那麽无聊
Xiang gen wo chao jia Wo mei na me wu liao
You want to argue with me. Im not that bored.

不懂得道歉我没那麽聪明Bu dong de dao qian Wo mei na me cong ming
I apologize without understanding. Im not that bright.

好想要回到我们的原点
Hao xiang yao hui dao wo men de yuan dian
I desire to go back to where we began.

你又在哭泣我给不了安慰
Ni you zai ku qi Wo gei bu liao an wei
You are crying again. I fail to give you comfort.

我又在摇头有那麽点後悔
Wo you zai yao tou You na me dian hou hui
Im shaking my head again (disapproving of my actions), thats that much regret.

爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
Ai qing de fa zhan yi nan hui tou que wu fa wang qian zou
Loves progression makes it already hard to turn back, but Im unable to move on.

但身不由己出现在胸口两颗心能塞几个问号
Dan shen bu you yi chu xian zai xiong kou Liang ke xin neng sai ji ge wen hao
My body still wont leave because of what is currently in my chest. Two hearts can solve many problems.

爱让我们流多少眼泪
Ai rang wo men liu duo shao yan lei
How many tears has love made us shed?

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
Ni de yan shen chong man mei li dai zou de de xin tiao
Your eyes are brimming with beauty to carry away my heartbeat.

你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
Ni de wen rou ru ci kao jin dai zou wo de xin tiao
In this way, you draw closer to take away my heartbeat.

逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒
Ni zhuan shi guang dao yi kai shi Neng bu neng gei yi miao
Time has turned back to the beginning. Can you give me a moment?

等着哪一天你也想起
Deng zhe na yi tian ni ye xiang qi
Im waiting for whatever day when you will also remember

那悬在记忆中的美好
Na xuan zai ji yi zhong de mei hao
That happiness hovering in your memories.

it pierced through my heart whenever i see the picture..

2009-03-01T21:52:00.000+07:00

it hurts.. it really hurts... T_T
i cant imagine all dis.. haix.. argh!!

shocking theraphy 0_0

2009-02-19T20:27:00.002+07:00

gosh.. at last i am able to update my blog and go online using my laptop.. i am in batam now.. and since there are no connection at my cousin's house,went over to one of the resto to just go online.. and the food here are like EX!!! wkwkwkw...
anyway,had a shocking theraphy on so many things.. most of it are private.. and i am still waiting for miracle to happend.. haix.. plix let miracle happend to me once more.. T_T
i have been in batam for 4 days.. and i am homesick or should i say i need cece...
hahaha.. forget it.. after all i am having fun rite here too.. =)
learning plenty of things here for my pastry interview to be accepted by the school..
nthg much more for me to tok here. better chao and do some other research.. =D
tada tudu tidi tede todo.... ^0^

pictures during valentine..

2009-02-15T01:28:00.002+07:00

valentine day.. <3

2009-02-15T01:23:00.004+07:00

came back at about 11.45pm. hmm..
had a very wonderful valentine day..
baby gave me a big surprise that i had never thought he would do..
i'll uplaod de picture on the next entry.. hehehe.. anyway,he gave me chocolate,14 red roses and 1 white and a bear and heart.. hahaha.. arent he sweet? then we went to the malibu to eat with a few friends..
all i can say now is that i am grateful infact i should be grateful of having such a sweet,good,caring and lovable boyfriend.. muacks..
luv u baby..

cap go me

2009-02-10T00:55:00.002+07:00

hantu!
skrg tuh jam 1.05am.. gua plgna sejam yg lalu.. berarti 01.05am-12.00=00.05am
hahaha.. ari ne tuh cap go me oo. =) dah lewat pun berarti imlek dah usai..
gua dah seminggu ini keluar tiada henti loh parahna plgna hampir jam 12am lbhhhh... tsk tsk tsk...
lama2 gua bisa di bacok mamakuw ne.. =p
hmm.. ari ne gua buat cup cakes ge buat di bawa ke vihara.. bisa ari ne kan da DA BEI CHAN!
jdi tdi niam keng o di vihara kr2 ampe jam 10.30 gtw lah.. den kt cemua muda mudi and sebagian org dewasa bantu susun meja dan barang2 ampe jam 11lbh. aku,baby ma wandi mau nyusul mobil felix,eh tau2 pass gua lewat lampu merah pikirna ga da polisi jadi yach lewat aja..
gila.. rupanya tuh polisi di depan tiba2 suruh stop gtw pass ke samping pelan2 si wandi blg'' eh vid jalan aja.. kabur..'' hahha... jadina kabur deh.. enakna se dapat kenangan indah di cap go me o.. tpi jg ada kenangan yg ga enak.. gara2 tuh polisi gua berantem ma baby.. baby takut2in katana polisina kejer2 kt di belakang den gua dah gugup di tambah di takuttin gtw langsung deh meledak meledak marahin baby loh... T_T huiikss..
setalah tuh kt nyusul felix e mobil dah tuh baby,wandi,tung2,felix ma aku ke pemuda makan indomie.. hehehe.. ampe jam 12lbh deh..
=p
cuapeeeee dueehh.. blom ampe rmh dah di marahin ma cicikuw o.. memank se aku yg keterlaluan ga tau waktu plg.. =p
besok ma lusa ampe rabu terpaksa di rumah aja kl ga yach pigi renank deh..
oh iya,valentine dah mau sampe oo.. dan aku blom tau mau beli apa kasi babykuw..
hmmm... apa ya?? puhink ooo.... *thinking.......*
da ga kepkran... besok baru lanjut pikir ge.. heehe.. =p

PS: hp baby dua duana tinggal ma aku... hahahha... =D

pipipipipipipi....

2009-02-06T23:40:00.005+07:00

hehehhe..
today was like a joyful day..
hmm.. was at home till at about 2plus.. den went out to buy some cup cakes ingridients..
after that went straight to leley house..
owh well.. our cupcakes was well done and the photo is still with leley..
=)
hahahaha... after that baby and apen came over to fetch me at leley's house and went over to the temple for meeting.. =) had lots of fun and chit chatting there..
wkwkwkwkw... at around 10plus apen sent me and baby home.. baby and i took lots of picture but we took a few pic only with apen.. the pic with apen are above..

now i can feel that he truly love me.. =)
muackss...

a wish come true n promises made

2009-02-05T01:52:00.003+07:00

my wish and some of his came true..
1st. we wish that we will get back together and we did..
2nd. we wish that we wont be going on a backstreet relationship.
3rd. we wish that we could be together for new year.
4th. i wish that he would go along with me and my family for holiday at MACAU,HK and KL.
5th. i wish that he would be very patient with me.

promises made.
1. he will wait for me till i come back from singapore.
2. i will change.
3. he will be very tolarent.
4. he will change for me.
5. he will try to make me smile everyday.

many more..
=)
muacks...
i luph u baby..

1.59am

pee ka boo!!!

2009-02-04T00:53:00.002+07:00

B0O!!!!!
at last i decide to start blogging again.. wahahahha... hmm...
well.. things have been happening alot since i last blog.. its too long to explain on all things here..
anyway,i have been thinking for so many times.. i dunno why a friend of mine that i have treat
him as a best friend no longer in contact with me.. although i am the one who always find him
but there are so many things that i want to tell himm.. i only can share with him.. he is like a friend that i could share my sorrow and happiness with.. i dun treat him more than a friend just a best friend that could share..
i really hope i can start sharing with him again.. where are u?? haix.. T_T

now is 1.19am

yummy!!

2008-12-14T23:21:00.002+07:00

hey!!
its been more than a month since i blog!
hahaha...
=)
been very busy after my o'lvel..
well,been quarrelling much with deariie..
haix...
but we have been fine for the past few days. which makes me so happy...
=)
i just came back from dinner with his family.
its a very pleasant dinner yet intresting.. hehe.. =)
hopefully i can update more abt my life..
11.27pm

my heart's in two.

2008-11-08T00:38:00.000+07:00

i dunno how should i describe this feeling..
i have been having this feeling for 3 months or 2 months i tink..
when someone ones heart's is in two it is full of confusion..
T.T
still going taiwan to study though..
going next year after the chinese new year..

oh ya,i am having my last paper in two days time!!
YIPEE!!!
haha..
going singapore on tuesday and coming back on 14 of nov.
hehehe..
=)

luph u.. mwah..
12.43am

31st oct - 2nd nov 08

2008-11-03T21:13:00.000+07:00

been very busy and tiring day for that three days..
since on the 1st of november we had halloween party to prepare..
so on the 31st of oct we went to kakak tua cafe to take a look at the location.
at the same time we have our dinner and meeting dere..
and on the 1st of nov dear,me,ben and tung went to buy the stuff
for the decoration for the party at nite. and we spend from 8am plus until
2pm to buy the things then after that we rush back to the temple
to do the pocong statue and some of the games ingridients.. at about 5.30pm,
we rush all the way to kakak tua cafe to help out. den not long after the decoration ting,
i had to help apen wrapping bandanges around his body.. gosh.. it was tiring.
since he is tall and kinda a little big..
=)
anyway,i was like the one who help them on their make up and everything..
ended up i was the last person who get dressed up.. haha..
we finish the party at 11plus and clean up and eat until at around 12.30 or 1.30 i forgot.
it is very tiring yet fun..
=D
the party was quite successful since we do it last minute.. hehe..

hmm.. on the 2nd of november i could not wake up early..
since dear and me need to reach someone house at 9am but unfortunately we were late.
and she blew her candle first before we arrive...
haha..
after that we went to eat at babura den went to buy movie ticket den to vihara for the pagar ayu practice.
haha..
after tat we went to watch the movie laskar pelangi o..
lastly we went to eat at sushi tei..
haha..
cool rite?
and bloody hell today i had my business paper 1 and i am sick like hell..
=(
den today i cant get a gud sleep during the afternoon..
but at nite i went for VL tuition..
hehe..
den i came back dah..
=)
tats all..
photo will be uploaded when i am freee..
=D

9.51pm

gua bukan org bodoh..

2008-10-27T23:20:00.000+07:00

omg!
serius dhe masa elo pikir gua orang bodoh ya?
haix...
sebelum elo tau ne cemua lu tiap kale stayed up until so late
tapi setelah lu tau semua ini lu sleep so early...
haix..
dah lah..
terserah elo..
gua cuman isa mempertahankan apa yang bisa gua pertahankan and not more..
haix..
11.25pm

stuck in a meeting..

2008-10-24T20:45:00.000+07:00

well well well..
i am stuck in a meeting whereby i think it make no difference
on whether i am presence or absent.. =)
anywho..
i get to meet all my friends lah..
at least we had fun for sometime i guess..
=)
my dearie is also here...
he is busy with his own things though..
he is busy doing some SHOU YI for the song
title'' ESSENCE ''

anyway..
damn shit hungry lah..
it take so long here..
haix..
=(
there..
now felix is looking at this blog that i am writting and going to post it later..
wahaha...
=p
idiot!!
wekz.!
felix dongok!
*still no reaction from him*
WTH!!!
all he did was covering his face with a piece of paper..
LOLX!!!
nye nye..
wendy,erni,me and lisna are doing the trophy thingy during that event..
=)
hue...
-.-''
I AM HUNGRY AND SLEEPY!!!
8.50pm

it hurts me..

2008-10-23T21:19:00.000+07:00

it hurts me when i tell you the truth last nite..
i dunno why.. but really i didnt mean to tell u all that..
i dunno whether you have any feeling for me in the first place.
if u do,i am really sorry to have hurt u..
because i really dunno your feeling towards me..

tau ga,tiap kale gua ngm ma loe rasana senenk banget bisa ada
seseorang yang ngak akan marah apabila kita saling ngeledek..
malah gua rasa kita ngak pernah bertengkar serius..
apa elo pernah ngerasa begituw?

gua betul2 pengen tau isi hati loe..
gua harap kalau memank feeling loe ada,jangan pernah tutup pintu hati loe itw..
gua terkesan egois atau memank gua egois.. padahal gua udah memiliki seseorang..
tpi gua nga mau kehilangan elo..
nga tau kenapa rasana berat untuk kehilangan elo..
haix.. T.T

gua cuman bisa bilang sampe sini..
selanjutnya ntar kalau gua ada ke taiwan i will tell you everything..
i hope you will still be there for me whenever i need you by my side..
even as a friend..
=)
thanks alot..
9.27pm

T.T

2008-10-15T22:53:00.000+07:00

knp elo tiba2 cuek ma gua?
knp tiba2 ga mau ngm tlp ma wa lage?
aneh...
padahal gua berusaha untuk contact loe..
karna gua perlu seseorg yg bisa ngm ma gua and cheer me up..
apakah elo segitw sibukna disana? mungkin dah dapet temen baru kale yach..
haix..
ya dah deh..
gua coba untuk ga contact u terlalu serink au..
sory and thanks yach udah kawanin gua ngm tlp pass gua di luar kota..
=)
miss ya..
10.55pm

its 1.18 am now

2008-10-15T01:18:00.000+07:00

deariie blom bobo kok..
padhal dia dah seharian kerja and kul au..
masih aja ga cape2 na..
haix..
gua se udah mulai ngantuk cuman yach berhubung dear blom bobo
jadi sekalian wa juga buat barang gua dulu loh sambil nunggu i tlp wa..

o'lvl is within a week and yet i am still so relax now..
gosh..
cant write much today..
my eyes are gonna close soon..
T.T
cool..
wrote dis by 1.21am

yg telah terjadi..

2008-10-09T18:44:00.001+07:00

gua ga sangka dengan keputussan gua sendiri..
mungkin memank ini lah jalan terbaik buat gua..
tpi di sisi laen gua terus menerus mengcurigai dia..
asal gua curigai dia gua terpikir org laen yg selama ini kawanin gua di saat gua butuh dia..
apa mungkin ini hanya pelarian?
tpi gua suka ma keduanya..
gua terlalu egois..
gua ga sanggup dengan keputussankuw sendiri..
mengcurigai yg nga2 tpi padahal hati sendiri tidak mapan dengan apa yg sudah di pilih.
T.T
terkadang gua kpkr gua ga mau kehilangan dia. tpi terkadang gua jg kepkir apakah keputussan yg gua ambil ini akan membuat gua menyesal semumur idup?
T.T
ARGH!!
suatu hari mungkin gua akan tau hasil dari keputussan gua..
skrg gua cmn bisa membiarkan waktu yg menentukan semuana..
gua percaya apa yg cici blg..
mwah..
6.50pm

on 3rd oct

2008-10-06T19:27:00.000+07:00

today is the third day in brastagi.. since there are no internet connectionavailable here so i cant get to blog instead i type this in my note pad then i copy paste this blog..=)so far we had lots of fun here.. we have been sleeping at around 4 in the morning.so we are so damn tired every morning when we wake up.on the first day when we arrived here it was raining heavily so the boys wereplaying soccer in the rain. while the gals and me were just watching them at the side.since before the day we left for brastagi,wendy and i went to the saloon so when our hair are being drench by rain,the both of us will say '' 175 o wen/vid.''on the second day we went to mickey holiday.. and i get to meet up with loretta and dodo.we had lots of fun the whole day we played this and tat so yach.anyway,when i reach here,i start to call someone most of the time.i dunno why. somehow i just missed his presence when we use to go to brastagi.haha...everything came back in memory.. although he is so far away now but i am glad tat we are still in contact. =)today we went to the piso piso and took lots pictures.. and it is all damn cool..gonna show him the photos..wahaha...=)i gtg out of the room now to asked them whether they wan to go out and eat.anyway,here is already 12.19am.and he is far way asleep like a pig.. since there is 1.19am
mwah..

supposingly..

2008-09-29T23:56:00.000+07:00

i jsut came back yesterday and i didnt get a chance to really write anything here..
since i was so tired..
i couldnt even take a glance anymore yesterday..
i did something bad in singapore..
i shouldnt have done it but i hope it is once and for all..
haix..
took many pictures with grace they all..
will put it up here soon..
supposingly i got so many things to write here abt my journey.
but i cant remember and i am far way to lazy to describe my journey..
so i guess i will just let it stay in my memory forever...

going brastagi tmr.. bringing my laptop along..
going with the temple friends..
hehe..
lets see how the journey goes tmr..
anyway.. damn hungry now..
i am also damn sleeppy..
gotta get some sleep now..
bye..
nite..
may all of us sleep well tonite..
12.03 am

*i miss you*

suddenly miss my familyy..

2008-09-26T11:16:00.000+07:00

padahal baru aja atu ari ke singapore itw pun untuk jalan2 disini..
eh pass malamna sblom bobo malah kepkr org rumah..
apa lage ntar gua di taiwan yach?
apa ga merengek rengek gua disana?/
hahaha...
gua bentar ge dah au pgi ujian ne..
after ciap ujian.. i tink the first person i will tell to is tung2 ba..
bis dia orgna lucu.. dia kyk saudara gua gtw dhe..
apa ja sa ngm.. wahaha..
untung gua kenal dia..
he is such a good friend dah..

wont be coming home that early today.. coz might be going somewhere with my friends
till dawn..
hehe..
hopefully like tat ba..
=)
better end here..
chaoo...
12.23pm

2008-09-26T00:25:00.000+07:00

rasana ada yang beda dari dia hari demi hari..

ga tau apa yang harus kuperbuat dengan ini semua..

kadang gua rindu banget ma dia berharap dia yg cari gua dulu tpi

itw hanya bisa jadi sebuah mimpi doank deh..

anyway,

gua skrg ge di singapore..

tdi pagi baru ampe and i have been out all morning loh...

until i cant take it anymore but to go home..

but until this time i am still wide awake though..

having oral chinese exam tmr..

but its in the afternoon so i am not tat worried.

meeting up with devar,wei qing,hardy and shi yong tmr..

if possible..

after that i am meeting steffi,jessica and my babe.

owh.. anway,i have been out all day with babe..

but at around 7pm she started to feel unwell so i asked her to go home..

tats my journey for today.. owhh.. one more ting,i shop alot today.

hmm..

going brastagi with the AM e lang on tuesday..

2 days after i got back from singapore..

hopefully i can go cause i tink it will be damn fun..

wahaha..

bette end here..

ben's mac book is dying soon..

i hope i have a gud sleep today and have a sweet dream..

mwah..

gud nite everyone...

1.33AM

sudden happiness!!

2008-09-23T22:27:00.000+07:00

wahaha..
i get to see the penguin face today!
i mean both of the penguin!
the one that i made and the one that i said his nickname is a penguin!

i couldnt believe that he actually brought the penguin there..
lolx!!
thnks alot o..
hehe...
i guess i am over to sensitive abt u huh..
haha..

10.29pm

firasat cewe memank selalu bener..

2008-09-23T21:44:00.000+07:00

aneh yach...
knp se gua harus di tuduh yg begituan..
hue..
-.-''

anyway,selama ne firasat wa bener oo...
rupana tuh org cmn cari wa pass ada perlunya..
haha..
gpp au deh..
lama2 jg terbiasa au..
padahal pass minggu malam gua perlu dia banget..
tpi dia ge sibuk dan pun nga membalas sms org..
hue..
-.-''
dah ah.. jgn ngm tntg itw auu...

lusa gua dah berangkat ke singapore..
ampe minggu tok se..
den perhaps on monday gua ke brastagi ma org vihara...
wahaha....
gua dah gila bah..
baru plg ke medan the next day pergi lage..
kira2 bakal di ksh ga yach..
wahaha..
pasti di ksh dah...
=p
dah ah.. gua dah males cerita.. ari ne mood gua ge ga baek..
haix..
9.50pm

not going..

2008-09-19T23:08:00.001+07:00

not going singapore tomorrow.
is being cancel just because of my passport that is not done yet..
i am so dissapointed..
T.T
fortunately my exam could be postponed to friday..
if not i am so doom..!!!
T.T
anyway, i was home the whole day today..
didnt want to go anywhere.
going to the temple tmr and watch a movie after tat perhaps..
haix..
i seldom see him or go out with him noww..
oh well.. since he start his university..
too bad then..
gonna lost a friend again..
who cares dah..
anyway,been missing someone lately..
haix..
9.54pm

PRELIM OVER! O'LVL coming. T.T

2008-09-19T23:08:00.000+07:00

prelim is oOVER!!
=)
but O'LVL is COMING! T.T

poor me..
one exam over and one is coming.. haix..

kenapa seorang cewe menarik kesimpullan gtw cpet ar?
dah ah..
cemua ini cmn KESENANGAN SESAAT...
ntar jg udah ga kyk gini lage.. wahaha...
apa yg di kata babe tuh bener..
its gonna be a roller-coaster ride for me this time..
oh my god babe!!
i cant wait to meet up with u!!
plenty things to tell u..
=)

11.20pm

updating post..

2008-09-17T13:44:00.000+07:00

YEAY!!!
left one exam to go which is this Friday..
weird thing happened to me..
i feel that this few paper is the paper where i can answer freely
but why do i feel insecure with my answers?
haix..
hopefully my result will be improve. =)
peace..
leaving Medan this Sunday morning.. hehe..

anyway, there is one feeling that i'd like to describe.
is a feeling whereby i felt that whenever i need someone to talk to
or even someone whom can cheer up,he is always there for me..
for instance,yesterday i was all stressed up and actually i was not in the mood to tok
to anybody but i dunno why i called him and i was hoping tat he could relief my stress.
in result i do feel relief but i also feel bad because i took up too much of his time.. T.T
anyway,
isn't it weird? is like he knows how i feel or perhaps its just coincidence.
hmmm.....
no one noes the answer.. haix..
i admit that i do really feel happy when i get to tok to him dis few days..
(although i had to used up quite a sum of money)
because,its like a very different thing when i tok to him and tok to other friends.
i dunno why..
i do miss him though but yach.. wat to do.. is no point of me missing him..
he already had a gf there.. *tat is wat i heard from his friends.*
to come to a conclusion,i just feel happy when i get to tok with him. =)

2.12pm

madness!

2008-09-14T13:46:00.000+07:00

yesterday was madness!
i reach like wat 1am!!!!
i NEVER come home so late before at medan..
gosh..
and i was like so tired lah with all the event yesterday..
i was like wearing heels and i had to walk here walk there and even stand there all the time..
T.T
but everything was paid off. hehe.. was quite happy lah there.
hehe..
anyway,been very lazy writting blogs.
tmr i am having my math prelim exam. and yet i am still so calm..
LOLX!!!
i better end here.
chao..
1.49pm

SLACKING!!

2008-09-08T20:30:00.000+07:00

DIGGING HOLE CONTEST!

DONE BY : WENDOTZ,WANDI,WILBERT,TUNG2 and APEN! DUNNO WAT BOAT is this called.

PULLL!!!!
US WITHOUT APEN,PEI ZHE,LISNA and ABIT!

WOOHOOO!!!

i am like slacking!!

omg!!!

HELP ME!!!!

ARGH!!!

anyway,yesterdaywas like a true weird day.. hmm.. why do i called it a weird day... because yesterday i was like driving like a mad girl.. hahaha...

ok.. seriously i am so happy yesterday although we didnt play enough at the BEACH!!

but still... we had quite a day!!

haha.. see the photo above...

there are actually many more photo. but too lazy to upload so many. hehe..

8.53pm

the day you left.....

2008-09-04T20:03:00.000+07:00

today i couldnt believe that you actually left.
this morning,i was talking on the phone with you.
all of a sudden at nite,you told me that you are leaving already.
well,you leave for good didnt you and you are continueing your study.
but why are you so bad towards me?
why didnt you want to tell me this morning that you are actually leaving tonight?
no wonder you told me that you are busy today and that you cant follow us this saturday.
you made me sad today. although in the morning i was happy and thrilled at the same time.
anyway,i felt that this one week since i talk to you on the phone,you tend to tell me more about the thingsthat happend around you and you really listen to my never ending story.
i really treasure all that.thanks for being such a listener. =)
since you are no longer here,i cant really get a chance to share my never ending story with you anymore. unless we were online at the same time and unless you have not forgotten me as your friend that frustrates you everyday.
now i really feel that i lost someone important.but i dunno the word important means what.haha..
all these things,i can only write it here. i wouldnt know if you will read my blog so yach..anyway,i am gonna miss you and gonna miss the days i had with you. especially the day of ur birthday.=)soon i gotta find someone who can quarrel with me and be there for me when i need them. haix.
talking about your birthday.
hmm... your present are still with me.so i guess if i am going there for good too,i'll bring it along for you.if not then when i get a chance to meet you then i'll give it to you.
i was wondering something. did you bring along the penguin or did you put it at home?
hmm... *curiousity* hoping that you did bring it there even though it was not from someone special.JIA YOU there OOO!!! ^0^ hoho.. stop flirting so much with the girls there.. =)

3/9/08
10.45pm

hari yg melelahkan,yg bau and yg happy..

2008-08-31T23:39:00.000+07:00

gua tdi pagi2 ada ngm tlp ma satu org,tpi yach gtw dech.. berhubung wa ai ngajar anak kecil di vihara mandarin terpaksa dah harus tutup tlp.. haix.. mlh dia sibuk ge malemna.. wew.. cuap duehh..

hahaha.. ari ne tuh kan che it. jadi pada ke vihara ne muda mudina and org tua..
yg ada di vihara muda mudina tuh banyak tp yg deket pny cmn ''tung2,wandy,aben,apen,wendy,wa,p'zhe,nao2 and abit.'' yg datang cemua kecuali se ABIT! haha.. ke ospek dia. hmm.... kt tdi berempat yg duduk di belakang untuk bantu2 dari belakang tuh,''wa,apen,wendy ma nao2.'' superduper panas men di belakang. malah gua pakek hai qing lage. waduh hai.. tambah panasna.. dah gtw,''tung2,aben,wandy ma p'zhe'' di depan maen instruement vihara tuh thak keng o..jdi mrk ga ma kt2. hehe. kt ari ne tuh kerja harus super cepat and muntap ooo.. dan sehari ini lah rasa lelah,rasa bau and rasa happyna tuh wew... muantap dah.. gua ga sa stop ketawa. oh iya,ciap thak keng cemua and pass pada dah plg,kt muda mudi tinggal di vihara untuk beres beresin barang. itw lha dimana kt betul2 enjoy.. ketawa,sekaligus mengeluh capena. sgtw capena,kt msh sempet poto2 loh.. wahahaha...
parah dah kt cemua.. dah gtw di tambah lage semua aroma badan kt phew... muantap dah.. meskipun kt gtw bau,kt masih sempet ke pizza hut tuk maem loh.. =)))
abis maem baru pada plg.. hahaha.. iihh.. pokokna ari ne tuh complete dah.. ada aromana lage.. phew.. hahahaha...

oh yach,i am working part time now. wahaha.. lucky for me but it will be much tiring than ever. =)
but its ok lah its for my own experience.. hahahaha.. peace..=D

11.51pm

2008-08-26T20:27:00.000+07:00

tralalal trilili trululu trelele trololo...bosan banget ne di sekul..mumpung ge ga ada lesson ne,gua tulis blog dulu ajah di notepad tar mlem baru di post..huehuehue...
bbrp ari ne gua males banget dah buat apa2..dah gtw,gua found out that i am having PRILIMANTRY exam in 17 days.hoho...
and on the 20th of september i am going singapore because i am having o'lvl chinese oral exam at queensway secondary school..
LOL
dah 2 hari ne gua ga da suara jadina ai ngm tlp pun susah.
ngm aja pun rasana males gtw.haix..
semalem gua ke vihara tpi bukan kesana untuk niam keng lohh..gua kesana ma wendy buat pr masing2.dia ada project work and me doing some crappy english comprehension homework and math homework.=D
oh iyach,tung tung ntar sore ke jakarta au loh.. dia kamis baru plg tuh anak..thanks to him and felix gua jadi agak lega atas masalah gua itw.apa ge yach....
hmmmm....
gua ada buat sesuatu buat MR.P tpi kykna se ga bkl kesampe ke tangan dia deh.bis,kt ja dah ga pernah keluar bareng temen2 gtw.kapan2 dah ketemu baru sa ksh dia.itw pun kl barangna kaga hilang.
huahuahuahua........
11.33AM

To: MR.N hidup memank kejam tapi yang lebih menyedihkan lagi jika kita harus berpura2 tidak tau walaupun sebenarnya kita tau.
kata2 ini lah yang gua akan kasih ke elu sooner or later. *to someone that is such a JERK!*
i simply cant believe that you such a person. last time you were not like that. why now you are like this? loe kaga ada prinsip diri loe sendiri dan gengsi loe itw lah telah mengcelakai diri loe sendiri! selama bbrp ari ne gua avoid lu,apa lu sadar atas kata2 yg telah elo blg?

To: MISS.G segila apa pun gua,gua kaga pernah KEGATELLAN panggil dia SAYANK dlan ok!
8.41pm

moving onn...

2008-08-23T21:51:00.000+07:00

so sick yesterday.. my head is like being hit and press down by something hard and heavy.. today,at least better than yesterday but still my throat hurts and guess wat,leley is also sick.. lolx..
anyway,i might be moving to a livejournal. perhaps.. when i am free den i will move.. hahaha..
so far,i didnt think much abt someone but i felt weird for the past 4 days i had the weirdest dream ever in my life. it is like it is not link to my real world. something like tat.. haha..
BORED BORED BORED!!! i have not been going to the temple for like wat 7days?? i guess....

i got a new phone.. a phone that i wanted.. not really so desperate of tat phone but yach i got it.. a sony ericsson phone.. hehe..

9.57pm

6 more days to go

2008-08-20T22:06:00.000+07:00

appraently i am waiting for the days to past on.. i am still counting that 6 days. is gonna be 5 days soon.. hohoho..
after that 5 days,i will noe exactly what i want to noe..
thank god i had got such chance. =)
once i get out of ur life,i wouldnt be having such head ache anymore..
i told babe abt it..
so ya.. i got to tolerate these 6 days in order to get a better future. and i got to stop finding and putting on hope.. =)
gotta end here..
10.09pm

pararumbamba!

2008-08-17T22:35:00.000+07:00

hohoho.. ari ne gua dari ciank keluar oo... =)
ciank gua ke vihara. ampun dah,gua keringattan ampe plg rumah ganti baju trus balik ge ke vihara.. hahaha..
dah gtw,
wendy,steven,tung2,wandy,aben,shifu,abit,p'zhe,lisna,atie,me and one or two more girls and a guy yg gua ga tau namana. hehe.. collyyy ooo...
kt cemua ke thambrin pny pizza hut maem ar.. =)
we TOK and we LAUGH so loud there.. lolx..
having lots of fun lohh... huehuehue..
stelah maem,seharusna gua jemput aida trus pigi angsapura e ar. tp ga jadi.
jadina wa ngedrop aida di angsapura,berhubung mama wa dah merepet2..
hehe.. jadi phai se oo...
ampe cini ajah deh.. pokokna wa ari ne cenenk ajah.. hehe.. =)
10.42pm

MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!!

2008-08-16T21:36:00.000+07:00

you are meddling my privacy life too much.. i hate it.. now becoz of u everything is tossing and twisting around and you make me had a bad head ache!! GRRR!!!! please mind your own business would u.. you dunno exactly wat had happend so please just SHUT UP!! URGH!! *to a gal*

i am very dissapointed in you. i had no words to describe how disspointed am i right now. and i just wish to go far far away from you. if i could,i wouldnt even want to take another look of you!! URGH!! *to a guy*

thanks to someone yesterday i didnt drop a single tear and i am happy.. thankuew so much for cheering me up. although you dunno that i was actually very frustrated yesterday. you are always there for me when i need you. i dunno why. lolx. even though you dunno abt it but i noe it and it is enough for me to noe it to myself. =)
*to someone that acc me yesterday till 1+ am.*

today,i was like not home the whole day. i was like out the whole day. can u just imagine that? and my mom didnt realize that. phew.. hehe.. at around 11,i was with my friends and some teacher at cemara asri to play badminton. i was sweating like i never sweat for a whole month. lolx. and it was exhausting until my hand shakes. haha.. but it was fun though. then we went for lunch at 2+pm. we had lunch at TAIPAN! lolx. we ate dim sum. den after dat,the gals and i were at leley house. we loiter at her house until 7plus so tat we can eat KWETIAU BELACHAN! hahahah...
at leley house,we tok alot and ended up watching korea movie.. haha..
seriously today exhaustion was not describeable. on my way home,my brain start to think abt the problem that i am facing now. haix. and i almost clash with a motorcycle. thank god i didnt. =)
i tink i should just stop here for today. i am too tired already. hopefully i will be fine tmr...
KAMPATE!!!
9.55pm

speechless 9.18pm

2008-08-14T20:57:00.000+07:00

D'masiv (di antara kalian)
"ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu tapi kini ku sadar ku di antara kalian
aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi
ku akui ku sangat sangat mengharapkanmu tapi kini ku sadar ku tak akan bisa
aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi
lupakan aku,kembali padanya,
aku bukan sapa sapa untukmu.
ku cintaimu tak berarti bahwa ku harus memilikimu selamanya..."

semua ini rasana aneh and lucu bagi ku.. gua cmn bisa treasure tiap detik yg ada bersamamu. makasih udah sayank ma gua. =) meskipun gua berharap,tidak berarti lu harus menerima gua. aku lbh memilih kt tetep kyk gini karna kemungkinan besar 6bln lage aku udah ga di medan. setelah itw,semuana akan berakhir antara kita. makasih udah anggap gua sebagai temen deket yg elu cayank. gua senenk bs mendapat kasih sayank dari elo.
gua berharap,kt tidak akan bahas tentang apa yg kt udah bahas selama 3 kale. gua nga mau lage ambil pusink semua itw. gua betul2 cape and pngn nangis rasana setelah pikirrin itw semua. tp ini semua sebuah pengalaman bagi gua. thnks alot dude. luph u.. mwah..

no schooll.. 11.51am

2008-08-11T11:41:00.001+07:00

TICKETS!
THE HOTTY AND ME!!

hehe.. i did not go to school today since i have to go and collect something.. hehe.. =)
peace...

then yesterday i was having quite a fantastic day though coz in a whole life time i have not watch 3 movie in a DAY!
well.. yesterday was suppose to be girls outing but ms marny went back at about 4plus. after sending her back home,me and leley and someone went back to palladium.. leley went straight home as her father had came to fetch her.
then i was with someone.. we went to catch a movie.. wanted to watch the mummy but there were no more place and the second one was too late already.. so we ended up watching OH BABY! is nice though.very few people were at the cinema..so yach.. after watching that movie,we decided to watch THE MUMMY that was at 9pm so we went down to the locket to buy ticket and went up again to continue watching.. it finishes at about 10.45pm. i was like so screwed up as it is already so late at nite.
anyway,thnks to someone i had a FABULOUS day yesterday.. had not gotten that kind of experience in one day.. haha..

anyway,time still go on and all i can do is just to let time decide on what our next steps would be and hopefully it is best for the both of us. now our destiny is on god's hand. =)
JIA YOU.. KAMPATE!!!

headache..

2008-08-09T23:11:00.000+07:00

damn! today i got head ache for the whole day.. haix..
somemore today is like the 9th day i eat vegetarian. gonna stop tmr coz IMAN gua ga cukup kuat.. hehe..
hopefully next year i can last for a month..
anyway,i went to the temple alone today since he went to brastagi with his family. he is coming back tomorrow though. sms me also after sometime he dun reply. hin lo..
dun care liau lahh.. he is also not mine. hehe. =)
peace..
anyway,today i suddenly miss someone.. dunno why leh..
haix..
miss quarreling with him. feel like calling him but i scared he is so busy lah.. so i decided not to call him loh.. hue.. -.-''
hehe..
anyway,quite a boring day today. i was like in bed the whole day since my head ache got so bad.. T.T
and NO ONE CARE FOR ME!! only my FISH care for me.. T.T
so sad...
11.14pm

08/08/08

2008-08-08T21:10:00.000+07:00

arent today date cool?
haha..
anyway,i was like laughing away in school today with the crazy FISH in my class!!
wahaha...
and i was like suppose to be in the temple now..
but i ended up at home..
because i was out with william,mr.irvin and vivi just now..
LOL
felt so bad for no reason.. haix..
anyway,i didnt get to watch the tv programme on the launching of the olympic thingyy..
coz the bloody hotel doesnt had the channell.. URGH!!!
anyway,i hope everybody had a great day today..
mwahh..
luph u all...
=)
9.13pm

laziness is attacking me..

2008-08-05T20:40:00.001+07:00

its been like sometime since i last wrote something on this blog huh..
oh well...
i have been going to the temple deligently dis few days and i am also getting very lazy
in all the things that i do..
sometime i wonder why am i getting so lazy at this time round whereby my
O'LEVEL EXAMMINATION ARE IN 77 DAYS!!!
gosh! what is wrong with me?
something is isnt right here..

lots of things had happend around here. some make me in a buoyant mood but some make me in a very bad mood.
anyway,i once told a teacher that he or she should smile everyday when he or she entered our class.. apparently,he or she did smile everyday when he or she entered our class.. he or she smile because he or she cant stop BULLYING me!! POOR me!! for the sake of that teacher smile i had to let he or she BULLY me! T.T
but it was fun though.. as that teacher is a very funny one.. =)

anyway,i was really missing my babe.. i dunno why.. haix.. its like since a long time we did not share out story.. =( i miss you babe..
9.02pm

writting dis for babe..

2008-08-01T23:07:00.000+07:00

babe.. today is like a worthless day for me..
i am so restless for dunno why..
in school i have been going to the libary to skip some classes just to have sometime alone..
something is not right here but i dunno what it is..
you know babe,i feel like crying and breaking down..
i am totally confuse..
and i am totally lazy of doing anything now.. even go out.
i feel restless babe..
i had rather not go out..
anyway babe,starting today until august ends,i will be a vegeterian for a month.
hopefully i can last that long babe..

hmm... i went to the temple again just now,and guess wat babe,he is so restless too today..
he is worse than me i tink. coz his face expression was like showing that he is all stress up and had something in his mind gtw babe..
i tried to cheer him up babe but i cant. i dare not.. coz,i scared that it will just make it even worst.
so i just ignore him or should i say that i avoided him just now..

anyway,i avoided many people today.. i am just not in the mood to talk to some of them dunno why.. and i am so sory...i had rather be alone than i let all of u my face expression that shows no interest at all to talk to you all...
T.T
11.15pm

2008-07-26T22:46:00.000+07:00

hari ini gua tdi kermh temen buat brownies.. den i went over to the hotel to meet friends and teachers.. dah gtw sempet plg dulu makan.. den i went to the temple with 2 people..
pada akhirna we got no place to go and ended up going round medan.. T.T
after tat gua anter pei zhe pulang.. last is tat someone.. we were toking away in the car for quite a while then suddenly his small bro appear make the both of us shock cause he was like stick his face at the door window. then i saw his mom.. then i was toking away with his mom while he is chasing the mouse out of his house.. dah gtw.. the brownies that i made just now,i gave it to him since he want it and since he like it..
seriously i dun intend to make it for him..
after that i went home at about 10plus deh..
hehehe.
that is all for today..
10.50pm
was kind of uncomfortable when i saw his mom. T.T
so soryy..

every now and then..

2008-07-24T20:28:00.000+07:00

everything for me now is just laziness. i am so lazy with my school work.. haix..
my maths now is even worst than last year. oh god,why am i so poor in math? T.T

things that happend now and then is like so privacy and it is so impossible for me to write it down here. huiks.. T.T

anyway,i miss OCHI!! T.T

my emotion nowadays is uncontrolable. ARGH! i can just burst anytime.
so those of you who dont want to get scolding from me,DONT COME NEAR ME!!
T.T

i just wanna be who i am. please dun judge me that way. T.T

PS: BABE!! I MISS YOU ALOT!! T.T

8.35pm

2008-07-22T20:39:00.000+07:00

21/07/08
weird tings happend today.. today is kwan im se and just now i went to the temple to thak keng o.plus,today it was a great day for me perhaps cause we had lots of fun there although we are supposed to be serious.half way thak keng,it was raining heavily and we thought it would stop after we finish thak keng.eh rupa rupanya hujannya mangkin lebat ar.. ampe hai si seseorang jalan kaki dari depan kerumahnyaakibat banjirna selutut and mobilku ga sa masuk o takut mesinnya mati.. hehe..it was my first experience on such thing dech.. lucu banget denger suara airna that go against my car. hehe.smlm pass kita ge thak keng gtw,ada atu org yg kepalana kena ketok ampe segituw kerasna suarna.. is like *BRUK!!*hahaha...gua sekarang mangkin rajin ke sana bis kaga ada bosannya gtw. segituw gilana se tung2 mrk ar. hehe.anyway,kykna mgg ne ga da yg pigi dech bis se tung2 ke brastagi dari jumat ampe mgg ar.rese e..
anyway,sometime i think through on the things that i had done that dissapoint everybody ormake someone upset about it. but,all i do is just go with the flow and i dun tink it is alternately my fault. T.Tkalau bisa memiliki seseorang yang betul2 cayank ma kita sebenarnya bagus and enak juga. tapi kalau kita sebagai satu cewe yg mencari seseorang yang betul2 cayank ma kita,i think it is hard to find that someone. T.T
PS: apakah ini hanya sebatas kenangan atau cinta atau suka? -.-''

it had been 3 days or more..

2008-07-19T21:36:00.000+07:00

that i last wrote on this blog.. hehe..
anyway,i had not been going online since the last 3 days coz i have been going to the temple deligently and i reach home at like 11pm at nite?haha. i had realize everything. almost everything in my life that i need to change to have a better life. =)

there is one thing that i need to clarify here,
'' in the future,if he break up with his gf,it is not because of me and it is not my fault. so people who think that i am the 3rd person,please erase that thinking in your mind. thanks ''

btw,i have been controlling every single emotion that i have especially my anger. i had been controlling that. so far so good. =)
ermm....
nothing much to say here. i have start school for a week and my homework are all pile up in one corner and i got to start doing all my homework tomorrow. ^^
perhaps one day i will realise how important an education is for my future.

anyway,going to the temple again tmr at about 9am. =)
i am just going to end it here for today. i got to refresh my mind by getting a good night sleep. ^.^
9.44pm

gua ngantuk berat!!

2008-07-15T21:36:00.000+07:00

gua hari ini ngantuk berat di cekull.. ne bentar ge udah mau tidur ne gua..
anyway,i become the class monitor. lolx.. weird huh.. and my darling become treasurer.. wahaha..
dah ah.. gua bingung ge mau tulis apa.. asal tulis yg aneh2 pada di jadiin gossip.. cape dech.. bleahx...
9.39pm

cape dech..

2008-07-14T21:13:00.000+07:00

walah.. tuh blog yg dibawah tuh sebagian gua isenk doank.. jangan anggap serius dunk.. bleahz..
anyway,today is the first day of school.. and i hate it! urgh!!!bete bete seharian tdi..

....

2008-07-12T21:42:00.000+07:00

hari ini kaga tau knp rasana gua cape banget. otak gua pngn na tidur mll. ngantuk lage. and ended up gua plg langsung tidur ampe skrg baru bangun. huiks.. T.T
gua rencana hari ini mau cerita ke diana. tpi kaga sempet cerita deh. haix.
anyway,tomorrow i will be going out the whole day with the temple people. hopefully i will enjoy it and i will make sure i enjoy it. =)

masih sayank..

2008-07-11T23:12:00.000+07:00

gua masih sayank kok ma loe..
=)
hari ini betul2 kenangan yg terindah.. makasih..
tp hatiku tetep merasa bersalah..
haix..
gmn ne??
11.13pm

kepengen?

2008-07-07T18:53:00.001+07:00

"kepengen banget semuana balik lage seperti semula.
kepengen banget ngerasain kasiah sayankna dari elo lage.
kepengen banget jadi milikmu lage.
kepengen banget pny kenang kenangngan yg kyk dlu.
kepengen banget semuana terjadi seperti apa yg gua harapkan."
omg!
semua ini hanya lah ilusi.. ga tau mau tulis apa lage disini. haix. today is a very boring day!
6.56pm

had a wonderful flashback.

2008-07-06T21:32:00.000+07:00

i am so tired today. i just reach home today from the 3 days 2 night trip with some of the temple friend from brastagi. we was camping. i met lots of new friends. thnks all to someone. he introduce to me so many friends and he had take a very good care of me and last but not least,he really kept his promise. he was with me all the time. thankuew so much. =)
anyway,for that 3 days i had a very clear flash back. is like the past. but i noe it is just for that 3 days. i felt bad though.
anyway,i had some great pictures of the lake toba view. it was so natural and fantastic.
owh god. is like the first time i see the lake toba was with him and the second time it is still with him. haix. anyway,now it is all left with memories.
luckily i already had someone in my heart. but still when i was there,i admit that my heart really melts when i am with him. he is so kind lah. i dunno why last time i dun appreciate him. haix. =(
i'll put the pictures tmr i guess. i am damn tired now and smelly. gonna take a bath and get to sleep real soon.
PS: i sms that person but guess wat,he only bother to reply me once. as long as he replied i tink is ok lah hor. *headache* T.T
9.57pm

alone?

2008-07-02T21:09:00.000+07:00

too bad for me today.
finally i asked him what i wanted to asked then he cant do it so yach. haix.
guess i might be alone first. haix.
i think 1st week will be the worse part where i'll be crying i guess coz i am so gonna be homesick. T.T
who else should i find?
he is so different now. is so hard to talk to him now.
i thought when i get there at least he could keep me accompany for a week. argh! who to find??!!! gosh!! T.T
finally my only option is to find that other person ar? T.T (dun wish too) hiks..
huiks...
better think twice before i asked that other person.. T.T
9.36pm

2008-06-30T12:39:00.000+07:00

i went to brastagi like on last saturday. went there with the hut teng lah o. =)
at first i refuse to go but for the sake of my dad i go loh. hehe.. anyway,i really enjoy the day i had there. it was nice. and i am so exhausted yesterday.
yesterday was like the second time i ever run so fast and in such a short time until i couldnt catch my breath properly. haha. the first time i ran like that was when i was still in OSS and when i was taking my NAFA test to run the 2.4km thingy..
hehe.
i was totally pooped yesterday. is like a very good combination i had. i was so exhausted,plus i was unwell.. and today my whole body hurts like hell!!

i feel bad smsging with someone that already had a gf.how i wish time could turn back. if at that time i could quickly realize all my mistake then i wouldnt end up dis way.

anyway,might be going brastagi again on the 4th of july till the 6th of july with him and his temple friends. so yach.
once and for all,everything between me and him is over and is the past already.

and my heart now still couldnt forget someone else. haix. what to do ar? i tink is such a waste of time for me to sms him,when he didnt even bother to reply it so wat for i sms him again? bleahz. T.T when i need his help then at that time he would reply me. then will he think that i find him only when i need him?

anyway,tomorrow helny they all and me will be sending kiki off and i am starting school tomorrow at 2pm. haix. so i might be skipping 2 days of school if i go brastagi again. =)

great,now both of my shoulder is aching. T.T huiks huiks.. T.T

12.53pm

2008-06-26T19:26:00.001+07:00

hari ini gua serasa cape banget. ga tau np. padahal gua nga buat apa2 dari tadi.
pnbgn banget bs tidur nyenyak. memank semalam gua tuh pngnblg sesuatu ke dia tp since diana kaga jawab gua rasa nga perlu di bahas lage. haix. mata gua hari ini serasa lelah and males banget.pngn tdr tp asal sampe tmpt tdr pasti melek lage. huiks.. T.T
bsk wa masak jamur and buat sandwich ooo.. =) moga2 bs ada tenaga dah..
pgnn istirahat skrg. T.T 7.28pm

2008-06-25T23:03:00.000+07:00

kyknya asal gua pngn ngm ma elo kok kyk ada beban gtw yach?
padahal ada bnyk yg pngn gua ngm ke loe. tp ga bs keluar dari mulut gua.
and now it seems to me that it doesnt matter to me anymore if u wan to go offline or wat so ever.
last time,i would persuade u not to go offline but now i tink is just a waste of time and effort.
because,wats the point of me persuading u when in the end u will still go offline and when the end,i am the one who feels that i am so stupid persuading someone that had feelings for other gal? haix. t.t
cape dach.. kapan semua ini berakhir ar? T.T

2008-06-24T20:44:00.000+07:00

today,i woke at abt 12.30pm because i slept at 3am yesterday talking with one of my friend on the phone till that late. bleahz. not long after i woke up,kevin came over to my house. we plan to make donuts! well... it took us 5hours just to make donuts. but it turn out fantastic though. hehe.. =)
i am starting school soon. in like exact one week time. received a sms from ms.marny to inform us that school starts at 2pm on tuesday. sheeshh.. it was supposed to start in the morning. because there were no more flight avaible for mr sam on the 30th of june,we go to go school at 2pm. haha..
that is the exact day too whereby kiki will be leaving. oh well,i guess we are sending him off.
anyway,it have been quite sometime already since i last talk to that person. well i dunno whether he read my blog or not. anyway,if he did,i would like to tell him that i might be going to taiwan either this mid july or mid august. hopefully i can tell him more. because before that decision,i got to go through with so many syndrome. haix.
going brastagi again this saturday. will be staying one nire. go there with the hut teng people. i was so called ''willingly wanna go'' damn. will be back by sunday evening. hopefully i am still able to go out with kiki they all dah. since he is leaving soon.. bleahz..

PS: VIVIDTY PAINT MY WORLD AND VIVIDTY IS HOW I AM GOING TO LEAD MY LIFE.(that is why my name is VIVID) =)

2008-06-22T20:09:00.000+07:00

i have got plenty of things to learn in such a short time. having my o'lvl in like 3months time and a few more days. yet i am still so relax. this one month holiday i have not been study anything. haix. all i think during this holiday is to have fun without stopping. have fun with all my friends. especially my friend that is leaving the country soon. haix. elvis is leaving on the 1st of july. at the same time whereby i am starting school too. gonna miss him so much. t.t
when school starts,everything is back to REALITY. i got to study so hard for my o'lvl because my result is ATROCIOUS!(sory if i misspell it.) bleahz..
i have been at home today. it was so boring.. urgh!! next week i have to get out of the house men!! hahaha..

2008-06-21T21:16:00.000+07:00

apa dia marah? apakah dia cemburu? herann dah..
anyway,gua ari ne pgi ntn kungfu panda lage ma temen2.. tp kale ne ma temen piaget. haha.. imoet pandana.. anyway,there is lots of things that i want to type here. but i am far too lazy. btw,i have been waking up at 12pm for the past few days. dunno why.. haha.. lol.. time passes by so fast and tommorrow is sunday already.. =(

2008-06-19T20:49:00.000+07:00

udah 3 hari ini ati gua ga tenank tenank.. haix. kepikir apa cekul yg gua mau masuk bakal terima gua yach? huiks.. t.t pngn cerita ke org yg bs buat gua cenenk and ribut ma gua e. tp kykna tuh org ge sibuk bngt ma pacarna ar.. huiks. moga2 di terima dech. kl nga di terima,ga tau au nasib gua gmn. bis gua ga ada plan B! T.T
blom apa2 gua udah ragu dluan. padahal kertas pendaftarannya ajah blom datang.. hati gua dug dig dag dug dig dag trus.. takut banget!!! t.t
MODEL!! gmn gua ga ragu leh.. gua ga da plan B leh.. loe bs2na suruh gua jgn ragu and blom apa2 dah suruh wa santai.. mana suruh gua sekul dokter ge sebagai plan B gua. gila ar loe model!!!
argh!!
hin lo hin lo.....
李松峰!!! i love ur shout out dude!! haha.. sama2 berjuang kt yach.. wahaha..

2008-06-17T22:39:00.000+07:00

THIS IS MY PUING PUING OOOO.... ^^

2008-06-16T21:41:00.000+07:00

moi lucky day!!
wahaha...
gua hari ini keluar ma temen PIAGET! is all about fun fun fun.. hari ne,se afong chia ciak oo.. =) abis maem kt ke timezone maen game. huehuehue. do some of those silly pictures and all dhe. dah gtw,kt maen game yg isa dapet ticket punya and i played twice and that twice,i got CHAMPION which means i get lots of tickets!
hahaha.. after that,we exchange the ticket with one PENGUIN! i will put up the photo tmr if i remember.. ahha.. i named that PENGUIN "PUING PUING...." cute? wahaha.. after all that,we went to sherley's house.ga sangka,rupana rumahnya rame bok ada mita ii and all. =) dah gtw,kita maem kwetiau belachan oo.. abis semuana dah beres,gua ma gid and vivi pulank oo. and on the way home,all the traffic lights was all GREEN!! so i didnt get the chance to wait for the red light to change into the green light. haha.. i am so damn lucky lah today.. =) wahaha...
acyikk..
mwah mwah..
dah gtw,gua ngobrol ma se gideon,dia cerita tntg kucing yg malang gtw and gua jg ada cerita lah. hahaha..
*puing puing...*

2008-06-15T21:41:00.000+07:00

i enjoy today very much. haha. went to buy ticket early dis mornink. =)
because,i wanted to watch KUNGFU PANDA! luckily we got the ticket.
anyway,i was not that happy early this mornink because someone asked me
whether we had an extra ticket. perhaps is for his gf or watsoever.
but that sadness didnt last long until i was smsging away and make me
forget about it. =)
anyway,after i bought the ticket,vivi and i went to eat our so called breakfast.
(since it was like 11plus.)
after that,without any hesitation,me and vivi went over to gideon's house and
there we met afong,we met him once at the ticket counter.hehehe.
not long in gideon's house,when i was at about to leave,i couldnt find my car key
and i got to search and threaten someone for it.
hahaha..
from gideon's place,i went to kevin's place then to sun plaza. i am having fun
because,i get to eat twister,watch movie and eat chocolate after that.
it have been a long time since i last ate chocolate. it was *yummy* *manificent*
hahaha..
anyway,my friends could not stop making fun of me with someone. haix.
when it was at about 7plus,my ex came to join us. oh well,i was like
chatting away with him as though there was no tomorrow. i dunno why,but something attract me to have a chat with him and i have this feeling saying that "thank god,my heart no longer pumps so fast." instead,i treat him as though he is my best buddy or my big brother. =)
isint that good?
i think i really like that someone so much. just cant stop getting jealous each time he get so near with gals.
but i think i am the one who recieve no answer or a reply in return.
i'll just wait for that moment to come to let me decide if it is best for me to forget him or for me to still like him. =)

2008-06-14T21:42:00.001+07:00

sudah terlanjur..
gua sudah terlanjur menyukai mu.. haix.. gmn and kapan feeling in baru bs ilank?
gua udah ga sanggup menahan rasa pedih di hati tiap kale melihat elo gtw mesra sama cewe laen..
apakah semua ini karma?
____________________________________________________________________________________

gua emank udah janji ke elo kl gua nga bkl ngeledikkin elo tntg pacar.. tp semuana telah keluar dari mulut gua sendiri tdi. istilah tak kendali.. maap.gua bukan sengaja,tpi gua dah ga sanggup. kl memank itw kenyataan,itw bisa memperingan beban gua.tlg cepet cari pacar biar gua bs mengakhiri feeling ini. t.t apa enakna melihat org yg kamu cuka bgtw mesra sama cewe laen? mskpn tuh org tlh blg kl mrk cmn sebatas temen. tetapi,bagaimana gua bs ngepastiin kl kln cmn sebatas temen? semua cewe elo perlakukan bgtw lembut,tp sama gua,elo bgtw kasar dan bgtw tak menghargai. bahkan elo menganggap gua sebagai cowo. apakah cewe normal nga bkl cakit hati setelah di perlakukan sprt itw sama org yang dia sukai? memank,gua ga sempurna yang elo bayangkan,gua nga sebagus dan seindah cewe2 laen yg elo idamkan. tp gua berharap elo mengerti dan bisa menjaga feeling gua meskipun sebagai teman. di luar gua kelihattan tegar,tpi apakah elo tau di dalam gua itw sebenarna fragile. gua mencoba untuk menghindar dan berusaha untuk nga ribut ma loe,tp semuana terjadi dengan sendirinya. gua pngn bs kyk cewe laen bgtw lembut dan sebagaina tp................... alangkah baekna bila ada seseorang yg bs menerima gua apa adanya. T.T

*FISHY FISH,kata2 yg diatas mendalam nga? gua dah bete tdi.. haix..*
PS: apakah elo merasa malu kl elo masuk ke sekul yg sama sama gua? haix.

2008-06-13T22:05:00.000+07:00

The rustle of the sand in the arid dessert,resembles the barreness of the thought of my heart. I've been dragged into complicated loves. When i am convinced that affection isn't merely about love,i would put the glorious sacrifice of love at stake. Forgive me for my imperfect,i can't stop this love. The love verses tell the story about my love to you. When happiness begins to overwhelm,i feel like i can live longer but i must leave this love while i am prostrating.

2008-06-13T20:36:00.000+07:00

hey sweetheart thnks for the things u wrote.
anyway,dun worry kae. i will endure with him until the time arrives.
in the meantime now all i can do is just enjoying the situation.
btw,when the time arrives,then it will be the time for me
to realize on whether i should continue or just stop rite there.
how i wish time passes by quickly..
wahaha..

anyway,i went to shir house today with moi sweetheart and afong.
hahaha..
went there and i share so many story with them and i tink they are bored of it already.
we took quite a few pics i will upload it as soon as someone send it to me.
=)
PS: for ur information,my sweetheart is SHERLEY LUEIS! she is my best bud. =)

2008-06-12T20:14:00.000+07:00

everysingle night and day now i cant stop thinking of u.
i dunno why..
argh!
it feel so frustrated.
anyway,got fever today.
darn.
i was out in the mornink and couldnt take it anymore
so i slept at my friend place for a while then left home.
i was so freaking tired.
haix.
anyway,there is so many things that i want to tell him.
but i got to keep it to myself first because it is not time
yet for me to say it out.
perhaps soon the time will come.
but i have decide not to say it.
who knows i might change my mind.
urgh!!
miss those days!

2008-06-11T19:45:00.000+07:00

gua dah balik ne dari brastagi.
hehe..
asyik jg disana.. waktu cepet banget berlalu..
haix..
serasa pngn lama2 ma mrk. tp ada yg ga bs.
jadina plg ari ne.
anyway,meskipun di hati gua masih ada dia,dan gua dah
tau the real him i tink there is nothing much i can do.
he treated every single gal politely and all.
but the weird thing is why he treat me so bad ar?
macam gua da buat salah gtw dhe ma dia.
blehz.
haha.. tp gpp dah.
yg penting all of us have fun.
anyway,i saw froggy at brastagi too.
hehe..
ga kesangka isa ketemu dia gtw dech..
hehehe...
tp yg pastina se he is moi friend and nothing more loh.
=)
oh iya,di brastagi we took quite a few pics.
see above.
one of my friend at brastagi said to me tat girls should NOT be too GE ER!
perhaps he is rite. so i have been one of his victim too..
haix.
so dissapointed.
ada bnyk yg pngn gua cerita but rasana kenangan gua yg di brastagi,
ga mungkin gua tulis disini.
haix.
it would be so shamefull.
but one tink i got to say is tat "I STILL HAVE HEART ON YOU! WEIRD!"

2008-06-07T21:36:00.000+07:00

perhaps one fine mornink when i woke up
there wouldnt be u in my heart and brain anymore.
but when would it be?
i hope it would be soon.
i cant take it anymore.
and plix for those people who noe abt my past.
please stop teasing and say it out to other people.
it really hurts me. even though some of u dun care how i feel,
but please i cant take it anymore.
i noe i am a piece of rubbish now.
that is why i am just going to stop liking the person tat i like now.
hopefully i would forget him soon.
he got too many gals to take care of.
T.T
i am nothing compared to the gals that asked him out and everything.
one ting tat i wont forget abt him is most probably
the memories all of us had.
together with the rest.
please god help me stop thinking and stop liking and stop loving him from now.
T.T
i am not a wonderwoman who can tolarate with this any longer.

2008-06-05T22:26:00.000+07:00

had my graduation day today.
at last i am graduate from my secondary school life..
haha..
but still i got one more exam to take this october.
how sad rite?
dis is the hardest part when u study in international school.
gosh!
anyway.
after the graduation events and all,all of us went to gideon's to
so called PARTY!!
wahaha..
he open a bottle of wine for us..
lol..
how nice of him rite?
we had pizza and paparons deliver.
=D
anyway,thnks gideon and ms.kelly for everything.
mwahz..
luph luph..

terasa beda

2008-06-03T23:21:00.000+07:00

gua ngerasa ada yg aneh gtw deh.
kq rasana asal gua ngm ma dia gtw kq beda yach.
pdhl gw berusaha kyk dlo biar sa have fun.
tp mlhan gua ngerasa sedikit hambar gtw dech.
apa karna dia dah sering kale ga jwab sms gua?
aneh dah..

oh iya,gua ari ne jadi anak baek di rumah trus ampe jam 7an.
baru keluar. ke tmpt leley.
abis tu,pigi maem ma ben and gid di tmpt kangkung belachan.
akhirna ampe rmh jam 10.40 gtw dech..
parah..
ampe di ngomel gua..
T.T

ga sangka

2008-06-02T21:23:00.000+07:00

ga sangka ternyata attitude gua btl2
gtw parah ampe ada org blg tkt temenan ma wa
gara2 gua ngmna kasar banget.
mank btul yach wa ngmna ane kasar?
hiks..
stress gua..
gua rasana cedih banget.
pngn change tp kaga bs. ga tau carana gmn.
someone help me..
gua pngn btl2 kyk cewe.
memank temen gua tuh rata2 cowo and gua lbh suka temenan ma cowo
di banding cewe. kaga tau np gtw.
hin looo....
akhirna attitude gua jadi kyk cowo.
T.T
penyesallan selalu datang terakhir..
=(
pngn banget change tp ga tau gmn and how.
huuuiiikkkssss...

i'm BEAT!

2008-06-01T22:09:00.000+07:00

gosh. today i was suppose to leave house at 6am
to fetch benedic and shir with vivi and leley.
but becoz no one wake me up and my phone is at leley house,
i woke up at like 8plus.
while vivi and leley woke up at 5am just now and they had been
waiting for me.
and i reach at leley house at about 11.
can u imagine h0w long they waited for me?
i am so sory to my two darlings..
wahaha..
anyway,we cancelled our plan to green hill yesterday nite.
but today,we go last minute and we followed the school bus.
together with mr.joseph,ms.rose and mr.joseph's wife and daughter that is
still a baby..
there is nothing much there at green hill.
we are tired of walking round and round.
and i am tired of carrying mr.joseph's daughter.
my hand now is all aching.
it hurts men. i didnt noe tat carrying a baby for so long is so tiring.
but at least now i noe.
haha..
omg! i love babies!
they are so innocent and cute.
hahaha..
oh yach,when we reach medan,we went to shirly house to meet her,
do our slides and order something to eat.
hehe..
i was so happy to see her.
i am happy too to see benedic cause is like he is back
and me,him and william can be like last time again.
like the 3 of us only.
eventhough there is leley,still we will have fun hor ley?
hahaha..
mwah mwah..
leley is even happier dunk yach ley?
i luph my fishy fish too..
wahaha...
muacks muacks..
i'll upload all the photos tmr.

loving every single minute and every single second of it.

2008-05-31T22:06:00.000+07:00

DARN!!
i left my two phones at leley place and the other one at winona.
URGH!!!
lucky i have my laptop if not die ar..

hmph..
anyway,yesterday i had lots of fun with my old friend.
although not everybody attend,i still love it alot.
i like slept at 6.30 in the mornink today.
they did not sleep at all.
they go for swimming. cant take it anymore just now,
if not,i would have followed them..
hahaha..
anyway..
i really enjoy EVERY SINGLE HOUR EVERY SINGLE MINUTE,EVERY SINGLE SECOND
OF THE FUN!!
i cant say it all out here. coz its way too long..
but seriously it was like crazy..
especially when we have the two jokers!
ATAN AND GIGON!!
hahaha...
hilarious...
the fun tat we had its undescribeable anymore..
luph everyone!!!
mwah..

10.56pm

cemalem..

2008-05-28T14:33:00.000+07:00

hehe..
gua cemalem had lots of fun with my school friends and teachers..
well apparently we went for badminton yesterday.
=D
yesterday was like many of us went there.
anyway,the fun part was when we versus one of the teacher.
nama guruna tuh mr IRVIN.
haha..
kt maen double. dia bareng sih william.
gua bareng gideon.
yang parah itw dan yang bikin kita ketawa ampe cakit perut
ampe dari berdiri ge mau serve tiba2 ketawa ampe duduk kt bertiga tuh
pass mr irvin lap keringatna pakek tangan then muka dia item cemua..
hoohohohoho...
dah gtw,gua btl2 kaga aim pny tp tetep aja asal gua smash dah 2 kale kena
muka guru gua itw.
pity him sia..
hahaha..
tp lucu lah semalam..
gua dah lama kaga ketawa ampe gtw..
kapan2 kt maen badminton lage dhe barenk guru2.
guru2 yg semalam ikt tuh salah satu is our DIN.
DIN means BP.
oh iya,lusa gua ma temen2 sutomo bkal bbq di rmah gua..
tp yg datang cmn cikit orgna.
but i tink is ok lah as long as we can have fun and all..
hehehhe..
true? true?
=D
rencananya bsk baru gua pigi beli barang2 bbq.
moga2 ne bbq kaga di batal deh..
gua ge pngn happy2..
ge pgn enjoy sebelom result gua semua dah final..
hehehe..
peace peace..
oh iya,
gua dah 2 hari kaga ke sekolah ne.
kykna bsk jg kaga sekul lage.
males ah..
di sekul jg kaga tau mau buat apa ja..
hin looo.....
sekarang ge pkrne mau kasih mc and letterna tertulis apa..
hahaha..
adek gua dah merdeka tuh dia..
mentang ga ke sekul,keluar trus ma mama gua..
parah dah..
tar malem mau pigi les lagu..
URGH!
bsk jg less.
haix..

PENGUIN!!

2008-05-26T21:38:00.000+07:00

gua pass sabtu yach kl ga salah ke sun bareng temen2...
lge nyari baju gtw dhe..
trus kt sambil tunggu ga tau sapa deh sambil masuk ke
art station pny shop.
duh gila..
ada bnyk penguin yg di gantung di depan pintu..
variety of colours somemore..
yg item bagus sia..
haix..
tp setelah gua pkr2 beli pun tar ga tau mau tarok dmn.
jadi gua blom beli dhe..
padahal pass gua tny temen2 gua whether it is worth it or not.
they said is quite cheap.
hargana kl ga salah ingat se 15ribu yach..
duhh....
beli ga ya?
hin looooo....

BORING

2008-05-25T19:05:00.000+07:00

today is like a freaking boring day for me!
i am like at home since morning.
nothing better to do then to off and online.
other than that i am watching tv and playing game.
got a stomach cramp.
damn!
i feel like bluttering out all the bad words!
but i must control..
urgh!!!!!
i should have went out with other people just now.
haix.
weird huh.
is like during exam time passes by so quickly but now time passes by
so slow...
gosh!
i want to have fun and not to just spent my day at home
growing fungi!
T.T

serasa beda

2008-05-24T22:10:00.001+07:00

gua hari ini shopping men..
hahaha..
beli baju ga tau ampe brp dahh...
yg pastina bnykk...
thanks to VIVI,EDWARD,SAPUTRA AND WILLIAM!!!
mrk udah kawanin gua untuk cari baju..
and thanks sapu for being so gentle and help me carry my shopping bags.
=D
gua baru tau rupanya kl kt beli baju atau cari baju bareng cowo,
itw lumayan menyenangkan yach..
mrk kasih komentar gtw tntg baju yg kt coba..
hahaha..
baru pertama kale ini gua beli and cari baju bareng cowo..
they are the best men..
temen memank tetep temenku..
hahahaha...
PRENDZZ POR LIFE!!! ^^

10000000000000000000000000000000000%

2008-05-23T21:15:00.000+07:00

i am 100000000000000000000000000000%
SURE THAT I AM GOING TAIWAN!!
FOR SURE LIAU...
WAHAHA..
DEFINITELY NOT GOING BACK TO SINGAPORE.
RUPANYA SINGAPORE IS JUST FOR MY BACK UP PLAN!!
MUAHAHAHAHA......
=D
yeahhhh...........

i have tried my very best..

2008-05-22T20:52:00.000+07:00

i tried my very best to let u noe how i feel.
--------''---------- to let u noe tat i need u.
--------''---------- to let u noe tat i wan ur care.
--------''---------- to let u noe tat i miss ur laughter.
--------''---------- to let u noe tat i miss ur voice.
--------''---------- to let u noe tat i miss fighting with u.
--------''---------- to tell u tat i actually still LIKE u.

but all of tat is just a waste of time dun u tink so?
u are too dumm to realize all tat.
u are too dumm to even know tat i actually exist.
last but not least,
i tried my very best to let u noe tat i hate u as much as i like u.
hahahaha..
wekzzz....
such a lame ting to write such ting in a blog.
but i got nothing better to write sia..
haix..
gotten my result.
and i am damn SATISFIED with my CHINESE RESULT!!!
hehehe...
=D
mwah mwah mwah...

the sad ting is tat,i am still wating for the final agreement
from my family which country tat i will go to continue my study.
if it is my choice.
i would choose TAIWAN!
coz it is something different..
something challenging i bet..
haha..
=)

unique...

2008-05-21T22:32:00.000+07:00

gua hari ini tidur paling banyak deh..
pagi bangunnnya jam 10an trus pass jam 3pm lanjut tidur lage ampe jam 6an.
hahaha..
gila...
skrg ne jadi burung hantu gua..
lolx..
ga ngantuk pl..
wahaha..
oh iya,gua td jam 7an keluar bareng temen2..
and today is like the frist day in my whole life time..
gua kena siram air yg ada di jalan..
dasar mbl gila lah..
ga tau mbl sapa lage langsung tancep gtw
dan akhirna airna sembur semua..
gara2 si babi jg lah..
buka pintu segala!!
dah gtw gua di suan ge ma sih babi tuh..
kurang ajar..
gua skrg dah mulai takut kl gua bener2 sa CLBK..
mg2 ga bkl..
gua ma dia tetep bs jadi temen..
=)
peace.
lucu dech pokokna ari ne di rumah vivi..
bis vivi ultah le..
akhirna semua org kena krim except kiki loh..
toh kiki,wa,ny2 ma aida berondok di wc.
gtw2 mrk masih sa lempar kue loh yach..
wahaha..
lucu deh..
unutng gua rekam td kondisi kt semua..
tar ada lage yg perlu wa blg..
tp ga sa di tls di sini..
becoz it is to private.
=)

8 years is more than enough!

2008-05-20T21:41:00.000+07:00

gua kaga mau lage balik ke singapore!
is so boring..
i need new environtment..
no matter what it is,
i will make sure i go TAIWAN!!!
ARGH!!!

every words means something.

2008-05-19T20:52:00.000+07:00

when i found the word jealousy,
i found the word like,
followed up with the word love,
the bitter,sweet and sour taste of our love life,
the bitter taste that hurts heart,
the sweet taste that make our heart blossom,
the sour taste that make our heart full of envyness.
all this words is only the meaning of one part of love.
everyone of us will go through this.
and the hardest thing that all of us will ever taste is the
bitterness in love.
BUT...
everything will be fine if we just take it easyy and smilee allll the wayyy
=D
agree?

my past still haunts me till now..
and i really hope all of you will stop making fun of me and him again..
is the past already and i dun wish to remember it anymore..
everytime each of u make fun of me and him,i feel that
something is piercing my heart because the memory that i had with him,
came back to me.
i guess that is why i am so restless today..
or perhaps i am too tired.
haix.
_________________________________________________________________________

restless..

2008-05-19T20:46:00.000+07:00

felt so restless today..
dunno why..
weird..
feel like sleeping but when i am on my bed,
my eyes couldnt close anymore..
blehz..
parah dah..
today i had my last exam..
which is BIOLOGY!
and it is out of my expectation again!
i thought PAPER 1 would be 1 hour and 30 min.
rupanya cmn SATU JAM!
PAPER 2 is 1 hour and 45 min.
PAPER 3 is 1 hour and 30 min.
gosh!
in one hour i got to do 40 MCQ question..
haix..
everyhitn is over now and i should have fun.
but i am so restless..
haix..

what to do?

2008-05-18T22:04:00.000+07:00

when i get to see him and get to talk to him,
my heart pound faster and faster every second.
everytime when i get to meet him,
i try to take lots and lots of glance of him.
is this love?
i feel so happy when i get to play and talk with him.
even though most of the time we are making fun of each other.
i think that is the special thing he had in him.
that is why i can like him.
he is not like other guys that i knew.
whereby i got to watch out words that came out of my mouth.
although we make fun of each other,there is nothing like a real fight.
i feel that he is someone whom i can relay on and who know
the way i feel.
But...........................................
i was wondering whether i exist in his eyes.
sometime i feel that i exist but sometime is the opposite.
i am such a sensitive girl that doesnt know how to control my jealousy.
everytime when there are girls who go near him,my heart feels weird.
is that jealousy or is that heart ache?
i know i have no rights to be jealous or even be angry
because he is none other than my friend.
a simple friend if that is what he thinks.
everyday i get different kind of attitudes from him.
sometime he can be so good to me
and sometime he can be so mean to me
and treat as though i am not exist.
am i really that bad till he treat me that way?
i feel that everytime when i get to go out with him,
and he cant stop smsging and meet up with girls,
my feeling is undescribeable.
i really hope all these feelings will fade away.
tried so many times to let that feeling fade
but it always come back to me.
today,i cant bearly talk to him anymore at night.
i feel that something is piercing my heart and i dunno what is that.
haix.
i am just gonna study now.
peace..
=)
hope everything that i study later will go into my brain..
phew..

UNBELIEVEABLE!

2008-05-17T22:28:00.003+07:00

gila dah..
ada2 aja org medan..
kl keluar bareng trus ngm tlp trus ketemuan gtw,
di namain dah pacaran..
cape dech...
ganti nickname aja dah di blg gua dah ada pacar..
org medan ada2 aja..
pokokna bukan pacar gua dhe..
cmn temen baek gua..
malah tuh org gua baru kenal 1thun setengah aja..
parah!!!
blehz..
-.-''

cinta ini membunuhku! (this song is full of meaning)

2008-05-16T21:42:00.002+07:00

Kau membuat, ku berantakan.
Kau membuat, ku tak karuan.
Kau membuat, ku tak berdaya.
Kau menolak ku, acuhkan diri ku.

[#:]
Bagaimana, caranya untuk,
Meruntuhkan, kerasnya hati mu.
Ku sadari, ku tak sempurna,
Ku tak seperti, yang kau inginkan.

[Reff:]
Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikap mu,
Tak sadarkah kau telah menyakiti ku.
Lelah hati ini meyakinkan mu,
Cinta ini, membunuh ku.

[#] ~~ [Reff]

[Interlude]

[Reff]

Woo… Hu~u… Haa…
Lelah hati ini meyakinkan mu,
Cinta ini, membunuh ku.

cinta ini membunuhku! (this song is full of meaning)

2008-05-16T21:42:00.001+07:00

ITS MY PAST!

2008-05-16T21:16:00.000+07:00

gua berharap banget dia ga ikut..
bukan karna gua benci..
tp rasanya kq gua ada beban gtw kl dia ikt.
only babe noes how i feel now..
haix..
rasanya beda gtw dhe..
swear gua bukan takut CLBK!
and it is IMPOSSIBLE for me to CLBK
becoz in my heart there is someone else already..
i am afraid that i cant take it when my friends will
make fun of me and him..
ARGH!!
why am i stuck in this situation?
damn it!
all i can do now is just hoping for that day to come
and i will see what happend next..
i hope it wont destroy the happiness that i wan with them..
this is gonna be the last..
plixxxx i hope everyone would go!!!
haix..
why izzit so hard to arrange such simple ting?
T.T

YEEEE!!!

2008-05-15T21:06:00.000+07:00

haha.. gua blh di blg ari ne cenenk dhe gara2 my english mark!!
tp rada kesel jg padahal sisa a few mark aja gua udah bs dapat A!
!@#$%T^Y&**&^%$#@*&^%$#@!!!!
guruna pelit...
wahaha..
tp gpp dhe..
gua lumayan shock jg tat i scored quite well lah..
wahaha..
mwahmwahmwah..

this was suppose to be post on monday!

2008-05-14T20:39:00.000+07:00

12/05/08
i got so many things that i want to write here
but it seems that the situation that i want to write about
could not be written and describe in words.
haix..
i had my chinese exammination today and it is
out of my expectation. i didnt know that
it will be so easy. i think i could get a very high mark.
i was quite pissed today during exam..
the reason of why i am so pissed is because
i do not understand why some people cant try to do the question
that was given first instead of asking for all the answers around.
i am not being selfish. i just feel that if they copied all my answers than
what is the use of my talent and what is the use of them to be schooling?
haix..
today paper was the easiest and yet so many people asked for answer.
worse still some people just asked for the whole paper answer!

anyway,i just want to let all of you know that if u are pissed with me
and want to say bad things about me or scold me,said it RIGHT ON MY FACE!
DONT SAY IT BEHIND MY BACK!
COWARD!
argh!
be someone who knows how people feel.
when someone said they cant then it means they cant!
dont give your F***ING faces and attitude towards me!
i wouldnt care now!
i would not even pester you and asked you not to be angry!
the more you show me that attitude,the more
you will be hate by me! i will just ignore you the hell out of it!

EXXAM!!!

2008-05-14T20:35:00.000+07:00

i have been all stuck up with the exam that i am having now.
i have been wanting to talk to someone that can chat with me
and make me not stress up.
haix.
anyway,life would be better if there are no exam.
i am like having geography exam tmr and yet i am still all relax here.
haha..
i have my business exam just now.
paper was superb it was not tat easy
and some of us did not have enought time to finish some question.
paper 2 is worst!
the first impression that i made when i saw the question,
i was like "DAMN!! ONE QUESTION CAUSE ME 12 MARK AND
THE BLANK THAT IS GIVEN IS SO WIDE!!"
HAHAHA....
i am so relief now that my business exam is over.
but tomorrow,i got to face my geopgraphy exam
and the next day is PHYSICS and i got 3 paper to take in a day!
GOSH!
i am just gonna fail that subject!
last but not least,MONDAY IS MY LAST EXAM!!!
THANK GOD!!!
AND IS BIO!
3 paper to take for bio at one go on monday.
wahaha..
hopefully my bio result would ne outrageous!
mr.sam told me that my paper2 result for english are the top few.
the unbeliveable one is that my score is higher than fishy fish!
what have happend to her ar?
haix..
i have been taking a nap in the afternoon since the exam started.
hehe..

about my feelings..

2008-05-11T22:22:00.000+07:00

erm..
i am happy to know that we are going brastagi on june. so i am going too..
haha..
but i am also scared that the moment for us to leave each other will come so soon..
after the brastagi thing,i have been wondering whether we will still contact each other..
each of us going to different country to continue our study..
i am just scared and fear of that moment...
we will have fun though but the sad moment would come too..
haix...
hoW?
when that moment come,i dunno how we all will react..
maybe for some of u is just a very normal thing..
but i dun tink it is normal..
only time would decide on what will happend..
hopefully it is the best for us..
=)
PS: PRENDZZ PORR EVER!! <3

(no words for this title)

2008-05-11T21:51:00.000+07:00

early morning i was happy but when it reach afternoon,everything
was tossle up... i was so pissed off becoz someone took away my only geography note!! argh!! the note that i have been writting for my exam!
damn!!!
futher more,my mom and sis added up to my anger..
and everything just went KABOOM!!!
omg!!
i am so sinfull today..
may everyone forgive me..
haix..

i am going for my passion! i must not change my mind again!
jadi org itw harus ada prinsip..
gua cape ahh denger different2 advice and suggestion from everyone..
make me cant stick with my option and passion..
blehzzz.

anyway,after all those sinfull and athrosious day,i finally have a happy day with some of my friends..
haha..
and guess wat tmr i am having my final year exam mandarin paper..
and i am still so calm here writting my blog and chat at the same time and sms...
haha...

PS: I HOPE I WILL CHANGE FOR THE BETTER AND NOT TO HURT PEOPLE FEELINGS ANYMORE. <3

plixxx plixxx...

2008-05-09T22:04:00.000+07:00

huikss....
gua mau ke brastagi!
gua pngn ribut ma tuh org!
gua pngn banget pny bnyk kenangan ma kln2!!
tp kq pigina may se..
gua lgi ujiann...
huiks huikss..
pergina juneeeeeeeeee dunnnkkkkkkkkkkk.........
whueeeeee.......... T.T
mau pigi!!
argh!!
___________________________________________________________

anyway,mantapnya ne... ari ne di sekul ga tau dhe ngapaen aja kt2..
yg pastina kt latihan dance dari jam 12.15 ampe jem 3.15 or lbh..
wahaha..
tp ampe rmh gua mlh lupa ma gerakkannya..
gua kykna ga bkl dance coz my dance is atrocious.
like a piece of cow DUNG!
haix..
happend some drama dis morning just becoz of some simple..
OMG!
arent u old enough to speak out for urself?
dun be a mama child..
___________________________________________________________________

ga sangka tuh org isa demam jg..
wahaha....
ketular sapa tuh yach?
lolx..
anyway,org yg gua blg itw yach..
kl ngm ma dia atau sms atau chat atau keluar ma dia and temen2..
pasti dhe.. tiada hari tanpa ribut pny..
wahaha..
itu lah enaknya dari dia..
dia kaga cepet marah.. kdg nyebellin banget aja..
wahaha..
gua lgi menanti2 satu hari yg bs ribut heboh ma dia..
hehe..
bis kl ribut ma dia,SEHEBOH apa pun,tetep aja ga bs kyk bnr2 marah gtw..
wahaha..
lucu aja ma dia..
______________________________________________________________________________

outragous!

2008-05-08T21:42:00.000+07:00

lol..
today from morning till evening i was having a great time.
especially during school time when we get to practice our dance for graduation.
my partner was wirianto.
i thought he would be a pain in the eye..
my expectation was wrong.
he is gud at dancing. at least better than ZON!
i am happy to have him as my partner..
is just that he is very naughty during the rehearsal.
hopefully we can be a gud dancing partner just for the graduation ting.
oh yach,i just know that gideon is a fast learner.
the way he learn how to dance just now and the way he dance is like someone
who had dance before..
hahaha..
it was fun until there is some conflict between some of us. tats a long story.. and it is unpleasant to write it here. so yach..
_____________________________________________________________________________________

anyway,came back from school i quickly take a nap coz i cant take it no longer since
last night i stayed up till like wat 1am in the morning. just for the song. someone kept me company though since he is the one who send songs to me. =) *thanks*
when i woke up at around 7.30pm just now,i was like having a slight fever,cough and flu. but still i have my tuition. coz time is precious and i left 4 days
till i take my math final year exam.
after tuition i ended opening my laptop coz i got to finish up
the proposal as the teachers had asked it from me for the graduation night.
so far,i have not finished my proposal becoz i was chatting with sukarto and chatting with babe. =)
we chat quite alot,about studies until rabbits!
haha..
i had a rabbit once which belongs to the whole class.. but he got rabbit tat belong to him..
his was in white colour.. while mine is in brown.
the class had it for like wat 1 week and it was dead. but him,
he got it for half year already and now his rabbit is quite big. he showed me his rabbit picture. indeed it is big now. his rabbit is a she and so is mine.. but his got name while ours don't.her name was bebe. haha.. cute eh?
ermm...
he told me quite a few tings about his rabbit..
i think all rabbits are like tat..
his one was just as naughty as mine.
but his one can grumble while mine dun grumble..
haha..
bebe eats everything as wat he said. and love to bites tings.. haha..
but mine only bites rag,tissues,newspaper and carton.
hahaha..
anyway,it was fun toking with him.
oh yach,babe is sick too..
toss kt babe..
=)

vivid memories(:

happiness...

is dis happiness?

dengarkan curhatku

unspeakable..

i love this song..

it pierced through my heart whenever i see the picture..

shocking theraphy 0_0

pictures during valentine..

valentine day.. <3

cap go me

pipipipipipipi....

a wish come true n promises made

pee ka boo!!!

yummy!!

my heart's in two.

31st oct - 2nd nov 08

gua bukan org bodoh..

stuck in a meeting..

it hurts me..

T.T

its 1.18 am now

yg telah terjadi..

on 3rd oct

supposingly..

suddenly miss my familyy..

sudden happiness!!

firasat cewe memank selalu bener..

not going..

PRELIM OVER! O'LVL coming. T.T

updating post..

madness!

SLACKING!!

the day you left.....

hari yg melelahkan,yg bau and yg happy..

moving onn...

6 more days to go

pararumbamba!

MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!!

speechless 9.18pm

no schooll.. 11.51am

headache..

08/08/08

laziness is attacking me..

writting dis for babe..

every now and then..

it had been 3 days or more..

gua ngantuk berat!!

cape dech..

....

masih sayank..

kepengen?

had a wonderful flashback.

alone?

terasa beda

*ga sangka*

i'm BEAT!

loving every single minute and every single second of it.

cemalem..

PENGUIN!!

BORING

serasa beda

10000000000000000000000000000000000%

i have tried my very best..

unique...

8 years is more than enough!

every words means something.

restless..

what to do?

UNBELIEVEABLE!

cinta ini membunuhku! (this song is full of meaning)

cinta ini membunuhku! (this song is full of meaning)

ITS MY PAST!

YEEEE!!!

this was suppose to be post on monday!

EXXAM!!!

about my feelings..

(no words for this title)

plixxx plixxx...

outragous!

ga sangka